There’s still about 2 months until I’ll have to move to Law School but I feel like that time is just going to fly by and as each day brings me closer to starting school I get a little more nervous. I invent a couple new fears and my heart drops a little more. I’m excited, but I’m nervous and I’m anxious.
The worry of today is about the workload and my work ethic. I mentioned in my post about the Game of Law School that part of “winning the game” is not only working the smartest within the system, but combining that with a superb work ethic.
And I’ll be honest with you guys, I’ve never had to put forth such a work ethic. This is probably going to sound cocky but I have gotten pretty far just by being smart.
I was labeled gifted in elementary which led to honors classes in middle school, and AP or honors classes in High School. I passed 5 AP test, and entered college as a sophomore from all the credits so I got to skip a lot of GEs. With the exception of my freshman year in college (which is a long story) I’ve gotten good grades (As and Bs) with minimal effort (sometimes less depending on the subject). I wouldn’t be honest if I said I have ever put a 100% effort toward any class or subject, and that’s mainly because I’ve never had to.
Our education system does nothing but teach us to memorize and regurgitate.
You know that person people hate…that did the 10 page paper the night before it was due and got an A, or never did the reading but somehow still aced the final while most people have been running around for a week just to get a B.
I don’t claim to be a genius or anything. I didn’t graduate undergrad with a 4.0 (evidence of my laziness) and I’m not out here curing cancer or building spaceships from broken toasters but, I’ve very rarely been legitimately challenged or felt the need to adhere to legitimate study time for success.
I don’t feel anything I’ve done in my life has prepared me for what I’m about to take on with law school. For this workload, this stress and for the dedication to studies being in the top is going to take. The main thing I have going for me in all this is my drive to be successful no matter what (and God of course).
I have overcome a lot. I’m a minority from inner-city low income community. Neither of my parents graduated college, and I am the first of my siblings to have graduated college (hopefully setting examples of what they can aspire to or be even better than). I had to figure out and learn a lot on my own, from college applications, to financial aid forms, to how to study and pass college classes. I have worked hard to get to where I am, but not as hard as I could have to be even better.
To deal with this worry, part of my 0L prep is getting myself into the habit of sticking to a study schedule and bettering my time management skills. The beginning of this new school year will mark the rebirth of Kristin as a student. This is my future, and the subject I’m most passionate about so I’m ready to give 100%. The fact is, everyone in law school (and really grad school in general) is smart or has worked their butt off (or both) to get there. So in the grand scheme of things I’m no “specialer” than anyone else entering law school in fall. Therefore, I’ve just got to make sure I hold myself accountable, and remind myself that the only person who can get me to where I want to be is me. For those that are more intelligent than me, they won’t work harder than me, and for those that work harder than me, they won’t play the game smarter than me. There’s no excuses for not giving it my all and making sure I’m one of the best.
It’s time to really go hard.